About the book:
Joanna Connors was thirty years old when she was raped at knifepoint by a stranger.
After this horrifying trauma, she became afraid of everything – flying, driving, travelling in a car while someone else drove. She had children, but hovered over them constantly, terrified about what might happen to them as well. Then, when her daughter was sixteen, Joanna began to confront the fear that had ruled her life ever since that day, and decided she needed, finally, to understand.
In an act of breathtaking humanity and pioneering journalistic courage, she went in search of the story of her own rapist, determined to find out who he was, where he came from, what his life was like – and what leads a person to do something as destructive as what he did to her.
The result of her investigation is I Will Find You, a shocking, moving memoir and a brave, timely consideration of poverty, race, class, education – and how life shapes who we become.
It was the cover that drew me into this book. ‘I Will Find You’ are quite powerful words. When I picked this book up in Waterstones I wasn’t expecting it to be about rape.
I put the book down after thinking that I couldn’t read something so unsettling and went to grab a coffee. I kept thinking about the book whilst I sat in the coffee shop contemplating what the story would be like. I bit the bullet and went back and got it and I’m glad I did.
This book is hard-to-read but impossible to put down.
Throughout the book, Connors talks about her own feelings towards her safety and it made me think about mine – something which never really seems to phase me in the past. I feel as though it has taught me loads. ‘I Will Find You’ acts as a double edged sword as these were the last words her rapist said to her but years later, that is what Connors goes on to do – find out all about her rapist and why he did what he did.
It’s crazy to think how something so awful could be ridiculously engaging, so honest and yet beautifully written.
Thank you Joanna Connors for sharing your experience with us. I for one think you are a remarkable woman. 10/10!
“Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced.”
- James Baldwin